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[Welcome to Victrola with it's lovely motto of what happens at Victrola stays at Victrola. Unfortunately for some people the City's devices tend to have a mind of their own and it's decided to record an interesting scene.

Sitting on a couch like he owns the place, which you know he actually does, is Chuck Bass. He's smiling at someone and seems to be inviting her to come over. After a few minutes the device gets placed down and Shalimar can be seen, sitting in a position that's clearly an invitation that says she's looking for a good time. ]

Care for some champagne Shalimar? [He offers her a class and she gladly takes it. She doesn't seem bothered by the fact that he knows her name. She leans in closer to him and grins suggestively.]

Awfully loud in here, anywhere a bit more private we could go?

There are perfectly good back rooms... [Have a suggestive smirk from Chuck.]

That so? [She purrs] Care to show me?

Anything for the lady. [He stands up and offers her his hand.]

Anything? This should be fun. [She takes his hand and stands up, grabbing the device as they start to walk towards the back she puts the device into her purse cutting off the feed.]

( OOC )

That was fun, I've always wanted to relive my childhood in a literal way. Because that was such a fun time in my life. I love being reminded of all of that.

I'm amazed at how many selfish and stupid people there are in this City. Evidently getting what you want is worth getting someone else hurt. Did anyone think that maybe someone they really care about would get hurt? Or worse a kid? Guess as long as people get what they want it doesn't matter.

( Filtered || Brennan || Unhackable )

( Filtered || Kirk || Unhackable )

[The first thing someone might notice is that this is clearly not Shalimar's apartment. It's an apartment, but it's made up to look more like a mediation room than an actual place to live. There's a Japanese style futon and some candles set up around the living room and that's about it. It looks like someone may live there though, or at least stay there.

The next thing someone might notice is that there's a little girl sitting in a corner of the room hugging her knees to her chest. She's wearing white hospital clothes, the kind you'd see patients at a psychiatric institution wearing, and looks like she‘s shaking. ]

Won’t go back...won’t go back...

[When she looks at the camera she looks absolutely terrified and her eyes briefly change to look like cat’s eyes. The camera clicks off as she buries her head in her arms. ]

[ooc: Button pushed and now there's a ten year old Shalimar hiding out in another apartment. Ten year old Shalimar has just broken out of a psychiatric institute and will be afraid of anyone. ]

[The camera turns on and at first all that can be seen is the living room of Shalimar's apartment, after a few seconds Shalimar walks in front of the camera. Saying that she looks pissed off is an understatement, waking up wearing this has made her very unhappy. Sighing she sits down and starts to go through her messages on her device talking to herself as she does so.]

What the hell is with this? This isn't sane. There's no reason I should have forwarded emails detailing "squad formation" where I'm given a codename. A really stupid codename. Who even came up with that? Oh yeah here's one that tells me we need to reschedule our classes Danger Room training session. What is a freaking Danger Room? I'm talking to myself, obviously I have gone insane--

[She cuts herself off as she notices the camera's on. She stands up so the camera can get a good view of her costume again.]

I don't want to even talk about the costume. At least Brennan got one too.

[When she moves out of the camera's way you get a nice view of Brennan walking by in an equally strange costume. No, he doesn't know she recorded that. But he should suffer too, it's only fair.]


[ooc: Mutant X is technically a Marvel product, so both Brennan and Shalimar are getting to be X-Men for the day. Codenames and weird costumes are stupid.]

I've fought a lot and seen my share of death. But nothing on a scale that big and nothing that didn't have a purpose. And certainly nothing that wasn't permanent. I guess that's the good part, nothing was really permanent. Death is usually such a final thing, someone's here and then they're not. You don't get to see them or speak to them ever again, or to tell them the things you should have. But here, it's not that final thing and it's surprisingly strange.

( Private || Brennan || Unhackable )

In case anyone knew him, Antonio Vega is gone.

Also for anyone that knew him Brennan Mulwray is gone. For anyone that needs me, I'll be at my apartment, I'm fine that's a big lie there and chances are no matter who you are I don't want to see you.

Wonderful. This again. A lot of people. A lot of loud people. I wonder how pissed Chuck would be if I took the day off. It's not like he's here to notice.

I'm not married. I will never be married. Anyone I spoke to on Sunday can forget about anything I said. Pretend I didn't talk to you if you want, or anything. Just the end. That's it.

( Private to Mercy || Unhackable )

( Private to Kirk || Unhackable )

( Private Brennan || Unhackable )

Ever since that night...I've been trying to repress the animal side of me. I'm frightened of it, of myself, hell I'm frightened in general. I can feel everything slipping and Adam isn't here. He always fixed it before, but he's not here. And I'm afraid that nobody can now.

...screw this place.


[ooc: The Elephant in the Corner curse>

Thank you to the hospital staff...especially Shader. But I've...I've left. Yes...I waited until I was alone to leave the hospital on purpose...to not be stopped. I'll be fine...I've continued to fight with worse injuries. Don't worry. I will come back...for checkups if it's needed.

James...stay. Do not come after me...if they say you're okay to leave I'll come. You don't... need to be looking for me.

Stay ...stay away from me with that! I swear... I will rip your throat out.... if-if you come any closer. You are not giving me anything else... certainly not... medication to help me sleep or with the freaking pain...

Ma'am we're just trying to help, you need to let us do our job. You haven't slept for more than ten minutes since you got here, you need to rest. It's just a mild sedative and something to help with the pain.

I can handle pain....I-I need to go check on Kirk and Brennan...they may be hurt or worse... And I need you... to keep the hell away from me... Don't think I won't kill you...[the sounds of her moving and trying to get up from the hospital bed followed by her collapsing back down and trying to get up again.] oh....

Ma'am! Please, you're just making your injuries worse, you're not going anywhere. Even if you could get up you wouldn't make it far like this. Let me do my job and cooperate. Or I'll be forced to call for help in holding you down.

No! No. No...you can't...I ...[Her voice is cracking as she panics more] you can't give me anything! I won't--I won't let you. I'd sooner just die...

[ooc: Shalimar was injured fairly badly and is in the hospital.This color is a random nurse trying to give her something to help her sleep. But she hates hospitals and really hates medications that may sedate her or make her tired in the least. Bad memories.]

Well wasn't that fun? Cannibals...I thought it was disgusting enough when one of mine offered me raw meat. I want my meat cooked and not human thanks. This is shaping up to be a wonderful month.

Anyone know where the best place to get sushi around here is?

Thomas this weekend works for me if you're still up for it. Also when Anthony gets off bed rest I told him I'd take him for sushi with me and Brennan and Kirk. It'll just be me and Brennan now but if you want to come and bring Mercy that'd be cool.

( Filtered:: Chuck Bass )

( Brennan || Private/Unhackable )

[The sound of something crashing can be heard as the video feed begins. Shalimar's standing frozen in her kitchen not moving a muscle. Despite the fact that whatever she was drinking has just caught fire.]

No. No! Not this. No.

[She continues to just stand there frozen, not making a move to put the glass out or to run away from it. It's almost like she's just shut down, gotta love phobia's of fire.]

Oh shit. How the hell...what was I even doing in someone's apartment asleep next to some guy? Because that's just not right, no, not right at all. It's not just intensely inappropriate behavior but...it's also damn improper to do.

What if we actually...no, no way, not even going there. This sounds so horrible, I would never just sleep with a man. It's improper for a lady to do something like that.

[ooc: Morality reversal, she woke up next to Kirk. She's basically still her save for the fact that got that pure innocent wouldn't even go to 2nd base with a guy thing going on. ]

[Filtered: Lux staff minus Kirk]

Could I speak to one of the staff at the Lux about covering a shift for James Kirk?

[/End Filter]

Making animals and people with animals traits go crazy, having stuffed animals attack, and then caging people like animals. Makes you wonder if that's what they think we all are. Animals for them to play with. Maybe some of us are. Forcing people to repent for their crimes never works. I think I really need to get out, walls closing in and all that.

On a completely unrelated note whose currently managing Victrola in Chuck's absence?

( Filtered | Antonio )

Text then nobody can hear my voice. For those of you that don't know me, my name is Shalimar.

To those of you who are close to Anthony Rutherford I'm sure you know he's in a coma in the hospital. Those of you that know him deserve to know what happened to him.

He came over to my apartment on Saturday and due to the curse that day, I attacked him. In my world I'm what's called a Feral, among other things I have heightened strength making me strong enough to bend steel. He wasn't the only one I attacked that day, there were two others. But he isn't from a world where he has to fight, he has no experience with things like that, and he had little chance.

Anthony is someone I care about, if there hadn't been a curse I would have never hurt him. But there was a curse and he was hurt, there's nothing I can do about that now. I'm not going to apologize to the Network, there's no reason to. The two other people involved have gotten my apologies and when Anthony wakes up he'll get one as well. That's all there is for me to say really.

Congratulations, you've all given me a larger headache than I've had in years. Every damn noise in this City is sending pain straight through me. I need to get out of the City. I need to get away from everything, everyone and just be left alone. Ignoring the fact that I'm still injured and have an insanely bad headache that's making me dizzy.

I don't think I'll be back for awhile unless you need me to work Chuck. Then of course I'll come back to work.

I need someone to let Tiberius out of my apartment, he'll find me. Those of you whom I've had some tension with lately, don't try and get near him. He'll just try to kill you. He knows who you are, we've talked. But anyone else, he may be a big cat but he'll just ignore you in favor of finding me.

[ooc: obviously people that her cat would just attack on site right now would be Remy, Thomas, Mara, Kyle, and anyone he doesn't know is at least on semi-good terms with Shalimar. Which right now is anyone she's spoke with lately that hasn't made things more stressful for her.]